5th Day without Melody

Hm.. Today is the 5th day without Her.. What is there to say... Well today might be the last day without her, because she is returning from a trip. But that doesn't mean this blog is done, because tomorrow will be the 1st day to see her with Clement. Oh gosh ._. .... Anyways... i will still, name it the 6th day for tomorrow...  As for today, i will try to make it really short...

I don't know what happened, my life started to get dull. It is not the dull you get from missing her. But it feels like I'm getting lonely... I started to sleep more than twelves hours a day, adopting Mel's sleeping habit... I started to eat icecream when I'm depressed, which is another thing that she does... I don't know if this is right, but i feel really lonely. I mean, nothing to do, nothing to eat.  It happened last time too i think, when i broke up with my last ex... She was really pessimitic and depressed, and I'm really.. optimistic and happy. After that, our characteristic completely changed.... I get bored easy, feel sick of life, and etc...

I don't have much stuff to talk about today, as I'm sleeping half of the time... Oh, let's talk about tomorrow's event... or death event...

Well, I was sorry that I made her mad last Friday, so i ask my friend, Jessica, to contact her and make a meeting for us. Tomorrow, before the volunteer, i would meet her half an hour before and talk to her. I have a lot to ask, but i still need to apologize, as i made her mad even though it is my fault. I really wanted to ask what happened between us, why Clement but not me, Why we talked so little after my dad came back, and many other questions.. I know it might be a bad thing to do, but I know that if I don't figure all the things out, I will not be able to pick myself up and move myself on. In the end, i will try to make the conversation fun, but i fear I wouldn't be able to...

Yea.. That's about it for today... I might go outside and have dinner in a bit, so I will talk to you people at like 9PM?

如果你給我多一次的機會，我一定會好好地珍識。
If I'm given a second chance, I definitely will appreicate and cherish it.