6th Day without Melody (night)

IDK what to say .. many stuff to say.. many things to bitch about...

I feel like I'm on the cliff right now.. about to fall.. but friends are trying to save me. At the same time, people are holding like swords and knives on me, trying to kill me. This is what i felt like right now... It is like I'm about to die -_- , one way I'm forced to leave.. one way my friends are telling me to come back and wait... Wait until they break up so I would go in. I kind of think that is stupid, because I'm like somewhat suffering from this whole mess, while people telling me to come back is just ..... Yeah... And i have 4 AP class next year... If I can't make it by the end of August... I don't even think i would have time everyday.... and I probably will only have time on the weekend... and 1 day every 2 weekends.... Those are like.. somewhat the reasons I'm kind of not wanting to go back right now...

Today... it hurts... She asked me to be friends again, yet she didn't even talk to me afterward. I feel like shit for being such "friend." Then again, their relationship just kill me. I'm half jealous and half mad that Clement hugged Mel in front of me and give me this stare, as if i would never get her... I know i wouldn't, but i mean... "Don't give me this stare." Just like Ibby said, "i think there [they're] still to young to understand how it makes u feel when u see them together." 


That's basically what i have to bleh about today..

 有時愛一個人真係身不由已...
 Sometimes, liking somebody is really.. weird... You do everything without your mind...…Nothing is in your control...