19th Day : Recapping

19th day i started this blog.. Today i can really say I'm taking down my Without title...

Tomorrow is starting of school for most of us. This year is my Junior year, the most important year. I feel like saying this is my turning point and my new life, because I will have to work so hard this year to keep my 4.0 GPA up. Next Reason is because of what happened during the whole summer. It's been a real stress to me (or is it?), so school might be able to take me off this issue.

Even though i said "Tomorrow is a new life," i might have to say it MIGHT be a worse one. It is true that after tonight, I wouldn't even see Melody anymore. That is one big stress off my back. But then, I have to deal with Homework, APs, Sat, Sat II, school, and other important things.

School is a good way for me to devote myself into, because I feel more secure sometimes. Most of the time, you find me being surrounded by people from different grades, asking me to do this and that. Sometimes I feel good, even I know people gather around me to use me. It is somewhat like "Everyone need attention" thing, it just couldn't get away from me. I mean, you have "fake" friends coming everyday, asking for homework, school, connections, informations, and etc... That way I sometimes feel famous, yet a phony one...

BTW, Tech wasn't open today... Couldn't get the schedule...

Next up is my current status. Everyone asks me if I'm alright. I have to repeat myself few thousands of times, "I'm Alright" "I'm Alright" "I'm Alright."  The truth is, I'm half and half. Half being get over it, half being fustrated. Why? I get over it because what is done is done, so mind as well not think about it... I get fustrated is because I dont see what is better in "Him." Not trying to say shit, but he has nothing... really. The truth is, i realized that people in love cannot see the person's false ... (even though there is nothing good in him). Whatever, oh well, don't need to overthink about this.

Besides my half and half, i realized that this is something that actually is good to me. I might be crazy talking about this, when like all these "BAD" things happened to me. But look, it motivates me... I might devote my Junior Year and make something good out of it.

Yeah, that's it for today, hope you enjoy... Tomorrow will be 20th day : first day of school.

新生活，新開始。
New Life, New Start.